Alone in a crowded room

So as I am sitting outside, and its pretty amazing... It finally doesnt feel like satan's vagina engulfed the world.. and for that I am pretty excited... Listening to the sounds of nocturnal nature is very calming, as if they know its going to be ok.... I am actually really nervous about going back to school... Will I be able to do it? Will I be able to pass and graduate, let alone be accepted into my program for my major? Then you have to figure... how the hell is this guy going to be around people? I am very cynical... I would be the guy that will tell you "i have good news and  bad news... Bad news is youre not gonna make it... good news is I saved a ton of money on my car insurance"... Im assuming I will totally lose my licence huh? But hey, that career will be short lived but man.. the memories I will have with my first and last patient will be worth it... We cried, we laughed... well I laughed... and then he flat lined... well he, or she... I guess I cant be sexious in my blog... It would be politically incorrect right? But in all honesty, it is my biggest fear, failure that is... I have failed miserably at life in most everything I have tried to do... Work, relationships, etc... I will say tho, I do turn out to be a pretty fandamtastic friend... Ask any of my friends, if they say otherwise, they prob werent really my friend... I actually really do value my friends deeply... If I had listened to them a while ago, I would had totally been safe from a lot of shit! but atleast I met the love of my life, Kylie Wiley, no really, thats her name... She's pretty fandamntastic herself... Shes my everything... my nonsexual lover, my friend, my mentor, my bitch... no really... shes my bitch... I miss running around work trying to find that damn minx... shes pretty good at hide and seek so dont play against her... She will win... bitching at micky, and the new girls, gawd... I miss her :( come see me my scarlet cock and together you and the purple pecker will stop stupidity everywhere! ok thats enough for now, Loves you all

ERICfreakingfabulousGENE